Another challenge to overcome

We're not supposed to be vulnerable
and talk about our feelings and what we want
or show that we can love and care
So i decided to give this thing a try

All I faced was disappointment
in the face of this starry night
I could see everything so clearly
and they all looked the same

The moon disappeared for an instant
in this world my mind created
and when it reappeared
it had marks like on a man's burnt face

And the worst advice I ever heard?
was that I should be myself
because how does that bode well
in a world so sad and un-edenly

And as i lied down to think
if i should be what i am
I wanted to run away again
like the countless times i did before

So running away wasn't an option
I thought I'd face them head-on
and forget the bottom of the bottle
that hasnt gotten me anywhere yet

I know when I wake up tomorrow
I'll feel the same way I do now
but I know one thing for sure
I wont act like I did the countless times before

Something’s missing

As I sat in a corner of my room, my reading lamp on and no book in my hand, I was staring at the empty white wall. A chill passed through my body almost like a tear would fall from my eye, and I was wondering why I was sitting like that. So I asked myself, and I closed my eyes to think, perhaps meditate.

I saw the living room of the house I grew up in when I was in middle school. It was late at night in that vision and I was watching tv. I realized I have been moving around ever since – and what’s missing is the comfort of familiarity.

Then I got up and started writing this post.