I want to start this article by citing a reference to a very recent movie called the kung fu panda. The movie shows us, sometimes very subtly and some other times, not so much, that we are never actually in complete control of our lives. That this control is just simply an illusion. This is particularly obvious when the master uses the example of the peach tree and how one can plant it and see that the fruit it bears are peaches, but one can never actually control when the fruits ripen or the tree is completely grown.
Now, starting out with the example of a movie might not have been the best idea when I'm trying to make a point that probably changed the way I will think about my life. Now whether this was meant to be or not, I have no idea. I don't want to go into the story too deep for the fear of opening myself up too much but what came out of it was the idea that I need to control my life.
Or atleast the fact that I need to take more responsibilities and the ones I already have a little more seriously. Another outcome was me having to realize that simply, I have to do whatever it takes to get what I want. Destiny, Karma or whatever one calls it that has 'actual control' over my life will not just hand it over to me. And more so when opposed to doing what other people want me to do. Although all of this might seem very obvious when written down, for some reason I think that I dont feel so strongly that these ideas are practiced with that much conscious obviousness.
Now getting to the control aspect, I have always been (and still am) scared that if I am in complete control of my life, do I have to answer only to myself? If not who do I answer to? Do I have to answer at all? The recent experience solved this mystery, and atleast for me, it was a (not so subtle) epiphany.
I will never know if there is soemone out there that I have to answer to, and Im not trying to make a religious/spiritual statement here, but what I do know is what I want (And when I didnt I tried to figure this out). Now if, per say, I dont have any control over what's going to happen to me in the rest of my life, I do know that I can atleast try to take actions towards meeting the goals that will make me successful from my own viewpoint. On the flipside, if I do have complete control over my life, and thus, every single action i perform, I don't see why I should not take responsibilities and take actions towards meeting the same goals mentioned above.
I'm sure that there are many people out there that have already experienced this, and many who still will. To the latter, I hope this article can help put things in perspective, and to the former, I sincerely wish you good luck with your goals. There is no real conclusion Im trying to make (or any that I can try to make) to this idea. My success in my life from my viewpoint would conclude this experience to me and for your own experience, to you.
I do still think that control is scary and that I want to know that my actions in the coming days, months and years will align with what I have said in this article. Another important thing I want to stress on is that I am making absolutely no religious or spiritual arguments here.
Now as I take on this control (or perhaps, this illusion of control) of my life, I want to be able to say that many times in the past I havent known what I wanted out of life, and there will be more moments like this. There have been times when I havent trusted anything, and there will be many more moments where I will feel the same way. But the least I can do is consciously try to understand what my fears are and face them. I want to end this by quoting one of my favorite quotes all time (Oh, and by the way, this is from a TV show - Scrubs) :
J.D. (from scrubs): I've been thinking a lot lately about taking chances, and how it's really just about overcoming your fears. Because the truth is, everytime you take a big risk in your life, no matter how it ends up, you're always glad you took it.
Now explain to me why TV is bad? ;)
Now, starting out with the example of a movie might not have been the best idea when I'm trying to make a point that probably changed the way I will think about my life. Now whether this was meant to be or not, I have no idea. I don't want to go into the story too deep for the fear of opening myself up too much but what came out of it was the idea that I need to control my life.
Or atleast the fact that I need to take more responsibilities and the ones I already have a little more seriously. Another outcome was me having to realize that simply, I have to do whatever it takes to get what I want. Destiny, Karma or whatever one calls it that has 'actual control' over my life will not just hand it over to me. And more so when opposed to doing what other people want me to do. Although all of this might seem very obvious when written down, for some reason I think that I dont feel so strongly that these ideas are practiced with that much conscious obviousness.
Now getting to the control aspect, I have always been (and still am) scared that if I am in complete control of my life, do I have to answer only to myself? If not who do I answer to? Do I have to answer at all? The recent experience solved this mystery, and atleast for me, it was a (not so subtle) epiphany.
I will never know if there is soemone out there that I have to answer to, and Im not trying to make a religious/spiritual statement here, but what I do know is what I want (And when I didnt I tried to figure this out). Now if, per say, I dont have any control over what's going to happen to me in the rest of my life, I do know that I can atleast try to take actions towards meeting the goals that will make me successful from my own viewpoint. On the flipside, if I do have complete control over my life, and thus, every single action i perform, I don't see why I should not take responsibilities and take actions towards meeting the same goals mentioned above.
I'm sure that there are many people out there that have already experienced this, and many who still will. To the latter, I hope this article can help put things in perspective, and to the former, I sincerely wish you good luck with your goals. There is no real conclusion Im trying to make (or any that I can try to make) to this idea. My success in my life from my viewpoint would conclude this experience to me and for your own experience, to you.
I do still think that control is scary and that I want to know that my actions in the coming days, months and years will align with what I have said in this article. Another important thing I want to stress on is that I am making absolutely no religious or spiritual arguments here.
Now as I take on this control (or perhaps, this illusion of control) of my life, I want to be able to say that many times in the past I havent known what I wanted out of life, and there will be more moments like this. There have been times when I havent trusted anything, and there will be many more moments where I will feel the same way. But the least I can do is consciously try to understand what my fears are and face them. I want to end this by quoting one of my favorite quotes all time (Oh, and by the way, this is from a TV show - Scrubs) :
J.D. (from scrubs): I've been thinking a lot lately about taking chances, and how it's really just about overcoming your fears. Because the truth is, everytime you take a big risk in your life, no matter how it ends up, you're always glad you took it.
Now explain to me why TV is bad? ;)
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